To be honest, I've been fucking overwhelmed these past few months - really, the past couple of years. I can't tell if it's rooted in my upbringing or the sheer velocity of technological change and everything I'm being forced to learn. Probably both. But the strange thing is that despite the overwhelm, things have become genuinely interesting.

Discovering Bitcoin and Nostr has changed my life. Changed my perception of things in ways I'm still processing. I'm grateful for it, but I'm also still learning - and sometimes the pressure to absorb it all makes me feel like I'm running out of time. Yet that's the paradox Bitcoin has revealed to me: it actually gives me my time back. It forces me to focus on what actually matters - providing value, sharpening my own skills, directing my energy toward things that compound.

The more I've gone down this path, the more I've realized how much of what we were taught growing up was a lie. Diet. Money. The entire fiat system. So many of us are going through a kind of detox right now - though maybe not everyone. Maybe only those who are genuinely curious, those pursuing what is true enough. I think that's the thing worth seeking. Not absolute certainty, but something true enough to orient yourself by. And sometimes we need help getting there. It's not always clear. But the pursuit of truth - of greater understanding about the world - feels like something worth dedicating a life to.

I appreciate the journey so far. More than the destination, maybe the journey is the thing. Bitcoin, Nostr, AI - they've all opened doors I didn't know existed. New understanding. New friendships. New opportunities. And now here I am, sitting at my computer, talking to an AI to help me organize my thoughts. In the process, I become a better writer. A better thinker. I learn to ask better questions, which gives me better answers.

It's one hell of a process.