Totally understandable. It’s very tiring to be a good father.
One thing that I help me is I realised that the only thing we can control is my own feeling. It’s very tempting to think “I will be so much happier if I have more free time “ but that’s usually not true.
Imo the whole point of life is being a good person and do good hard work and parenting is one of it. I learnt to appreciate it
What you said is true. I know I would feel a void if I were childless and have more free time.
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