642 sats \ 15 replies \ @ek 4 Dec 2023 \ on: Stacker Saloon
That moment when you realize that you've been preaching "consistency is key" without realizing that inconsistency is one of your own own biggest problems. Inconsistent sleep, inconsistent desire for social interactions, inconsistent output at SN.
Maybe that's why I'm preaching it. I know how much it sucks, lol
Sometimes I wish for the "perfect loop" like Elliot in Mr. Robot. Without having to go to prison, lol
it's fine to take a break from everything sometimes, do what you enjoy the most and find your own rhythm - we are not robots 🤖
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what if I have found my own rhythm but it just sucks? lol
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then maybe need to understand what's the root cause of feeling sucks? 👀
For example, I noticed I would wake up really late if feeling unmotivated or unhappy, and naturally wake up early at about the same time when I'm feeling peaceful and happy.
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ohh, right, it's important to analyze the causes of your problems! :)
I just tried to be a bit cheeky since your response sounded too "soothing", haha
And motivation does indeed play a big role regarding my sleep. At least when it comes to getting out of bed. Sometimes, you just want to hide, you know?
A famous ASMRtist once mentioned in a Q&A when she was asked how does she motivate herself to do all these YT videos that she just wakes up like boom, I am awake and then she wants to get up and get stuff done. That really resonated with me and I want to thank her so much for being so authentic if I ever meet here (without making it awkward since she probably has a lot of fans and it might get annoying but that's a different story ...). There is no magic formula. You just do stuff until it becomes part of your life and then it becomes natural. I am not sure if I got this quote from her, too, but it sounds a lot like her:
How do you motivate yourself? You don't. You just do it.
Or as a meme:
I was definitely unhappy with my performance regarding social interactions, regarding the prediction market and regarding my performance at SN. @k00b was very understanding and shared some own stories which was nice and fun but I think I have pushed his patience with me far enough now, lol
Being unhappy was the reason why I wasn't motivated. But then you get caught in this negative feedback loop of being unhappy and thus not getting stuff done and then you're even less happy that you didn't get stuff done and so forth.
not lol but lol
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I am awake and then she wants to get up and get stuff done.
that's how I feel lately, but then I also feel tired, moody and want to be alone sometimes, I guess that's part of the fun being a human instead of a robot haha.
I was definitely unhappy with my performance regarding social interactions, regarding the prediction market and regarding my performance at SN.
Most unhappiness created by our own mind, but then if you think about how lucky we are living in this time, and you have all these skills to build things that many people don't have, and being in SN surrounded by so many wise and humble stackers willing to help, like wow.
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that's how I feel lately, but then I also feel tired, moody and want to be alone sometimes, I guess that's part of the fun being a human instead of a robot haha.
yes, i think so too, the human condition, can't have the good without the bad and so on
at least we can do some introspection and find interesting things about ourselves and what being a human means :)
how lucky we are living in this time, and you have all these skills to build things that many people don't have, and being in SN surrounded by so many wise and humble stackers willing to help, like wow.
you are right but you can also spin it to make it worse: i do feel very lucky and i do have these skills and I did get hired by a bitcoin company much faster than I ever anticipated (if at all) and I am surrounded by so many wise and humble stackers willing to help, like wow
and despite all of this, i feel bad, which makes you feel worse, lol ...
it's lol all the way down
@nemo is taking a break, we've been in contact :)
i'll just get some stuff done now. Want to reply to so many on SN but then I get new replies and then it's a lot of "distraction" again even though it's very fulfilling to interact with all of you :) ok, let's say most of you! lol
just went through my 100+ emails and found a notice that a SSL certificate was about to expire ... oof, that would have sucked
another thing i never did: setup automatic certificate renewal (or to be precise: set it up again)
One month must be the perfect period where people say "ahh, I am going to do it later, I still have plenty of time" and then they forget. Over and over again, lol
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i do feel very lucky and i do have these skills and I did get hired by a bitcoin company much faster than I ever anticipated (if at all) and I am surrounded by so many wise and humble stackers willing to help, like wow and despite all of this, i feel bad, which makes you feel worse, lol ...
that's a sign for you that there are deeper root causes to dig, maybe try to spend more time in nature?
@nemo is taking a break, we've been in contact :)
tamam, will share more kedi when @nemo is back!
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that's a sign for you that there are deeper root causes to dig
I think I know what the root causes are but sometimes, you know what you have to do but you just won't do it, you know? Or it's too hard? Or it's too scary? Or you don't believe it's ever going to change? Or ... maybe I just need to analyze all reasons why I might don't do what I think I should do, lol
That reminds me about another very thought-provoking quote from the same ASMRtist:
The biggest mystery to me is that we all know what we have to do to better our lives, but we just don't do it.
(it was about drinking enough water and getting enough sleep)
tamam, will share more kedi when @nemo is back!
maybe I'll go visit his cousins again in the park :)
maybe try to spend more time in nature?
nature doesn't feel so good when it's always dark when you're awake, lol
but yes, need to go outside more when the sun is shining. did that yesterday, was very nice.
Boy does this hit home!
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thanks but what exactly, lol? :)
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I don't remember!
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you should have said "just everything" then, lol :)
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