I like Bitcoin core and running a full node to help the whole process because if I mess it up I can have my keys and still spin up a new node and access my corn.

Lightning on the other hand... I'm still running a node with closed channels and I have no confirmations of the closed funds for months now. It sucks. I enjoyed using my node but I had millions of sats and I did not really need to have them out there on a hot wallet

Anyway...

I'm stuck with Lightning and I've just put myself in pause. I'm tempted just to archive my node in it's current state and give it to someone.

I'm using CLN.

Before I had an issue 3 years ago with LND and channels disappeared. I got help from Start9 and my funds were recovered.

I barely mess with my computer anymore. I have a networked Bitcoin setup on a different machine and I just don't want to mess with it.

It's like a mental block. It is a mental block where I don't want to mess up beyond what I've done.

I've been using Linux since 1999 and I've played around for a long time but Bitcoin is serious!

I'm hoping that my brain will kick in again and I'll be excited to push through and make waves.

Thanks for asking this question.