I totally get this. People say don't cry when you want to cry but it's the worst thing to do. Not expressing your feelings will literally hurt you from inside each day, and you'll become depressed and look like broke all the time. I too have some experience, and disturbing things happened to me that I never expressed to anyone ever because I fear they'll judge me, or maybe I can't trust how people will keep my feelings. (I feel when sharing feelings and secrets, you should choose a person the same way like you choose a software for you that you trust, is encrypted, and won't leak things lol). I've learned how to fake calmness, even when a fire is burning inside me every time. Writing things online is a part very new to me and maybe I'll try to write. Maybe I'll start without thinking that people won't judge me.

Thank you.