I'm sorry to hear about what happened to you. But dude, you need to learn that you should only look for things that you seriously need and that are essential for your survival, especially as you're a Bitcoiner. I'm a student, and there are so many things I want in life, but they're not big needs. I've noted in my diary the things I'll buy when I have enough money; currently, I focus on my absolute needs. You need to work on yourself, and I'm sure you'll be able to buy a cool bike(Try to find alternatives until then). That's what I can say. Sorry, but I can't give you my sats. But I wish you luck.