i have 13 days left here in japan before i move back home.
the apartment is being cleaned, house things are being sold and given away, and i cannot help but be a bit sad that this time is coming to a close so quickly.
but, from quitting my job last month to going home earlier than i thought, i regret absolutely nothing. i truly believe i learned what i needed to, and now i'm moving forward with whatever is coming next as a more grown, and well rounded person.
after having recently come back from solor traveling to Tokyo, it made me realize a lot of things about the things i want out of life.
here are some of those things.
- life is so fucking short.
i am in my mid 20's. of course, to many people that's super young, and it is. i won't lie about that.
but that's just it, i am in my mid 20's already. it still feels like yesterday I just had my 18th and 21st birthdays. I still remember them as clear as day.
i spent so much time already dwelling on what i could do, instead of what can be done right now. after getting a taste of the freedom that solo travel provides, it made me realize the little time we actually have and it should be spent in the most meaningful way possible.
- death could be at my doorstep tomorrow.
tomorrow is never a guarantee, so you might as well work toward the things you want right now. for me, it's to read, write, and travel full time.
how will i get there without having to worry financially? still figuring that out day by day. and that's okay. i accept it.
- you are only alive when you are truly present.
being abroad and solo traveling made me see how much more present it makes you. you only have so much time to spend in whatever place you're at, and you become so much more engrossed and invested in what is going on around you. it is a truly beautiful thing to experience and feel.
- time is the most valuable asset you have.
working a 9-5 is personally not for me in the long term.
i have understood that time is the most valuable thing we have, and i will hustle in order for my goals to be reached faster.
- i want to look back at my life and look at all the meaningful and valuable things i did for myself.
an epiphany hit me hard while solo traveling:
it offers a type of freedom and growing experience that cannot be obtained anywhere else. i felt nothing but pure joy, value, and meaning conversing with people from all over the world, walking up and down the streets of tokyo alone, and just taking it in for what it was: life being lived presently and wholly.
when i think back to my younger years in the future, THIS is what i want to think about: what i experienced, how i grew, and how it shaped me as a person. and the last thing i would ever want is to regret and wonder about the what if's or what i wish i could've done.
for anyone who is reading this:
i want you to know that if there is an urge in your heart telling you to live life the way you've always wanted, take the leap of faith and do it.
i'm still currently trying to figure it out myself.
am i scared? definitely.
will it happen? in my heart, i know it will in one or another, even when my mind is always telling me otherwise.