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My dad has always worked very hard, and imo, sometimes unproductively, like hardness for hardness's sake. He's finally retired this year after almost 50 years of continuous, blue collar shift work. And still, he was ashamed to retire, like it meant he was lazy, like it meant he wasn't giving back to the world anymore.
My dad especially but both my parents are exceptionally generous despite not having much and their generosity often causing meaningful sacrifice. It was a great lesson to me how much you can sacrifice and somehow still be more for it (if you don't let yourself sour over it).
But my favorite thing about my dad was how creative, handy, and self-sufficient he was. It was likely something he picked up from his dad, my grandfather, who everyone called The Engineer despite him not being a credentialed one. My dad did as much as he could of anything - car repairs, home repairs, building and crafting random things, whatever. Even this last year he broke his leg replacing his water heater - alone, not having done it before - after it fell on him. He taught me that you can just do shit.
I also wanted to appreciate my father in law, who died this week, and is causing me to gush like this I think.
I didn't spend a lot of time with him. He liked to imply that I was alcoholic, because when we'd visit I'd always have a couple beers (and sometimes more), and he knew my family's history. He also thought I was a drug dealer, because I worked from home and made a lot of money, and at the time, smoked a lot of weed. I didn't mind though. It was par for the course.
My favorite thing about my father in law was how much he loved his family, and I don't mean he said it a lot. I mean that he viewed his family as his life's greatest achievement. He worshiped it like one of those old movies where a man drinks a love potion. Anytime we'd visit, he'd start hunting through their digital photos, reminiscing about everything they'd done together. I've never met a father who was so proud, so transfixed, and eager to indulge in the wholeness of his family.
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