the way to want me is not to want me expectations scare me and the more you anticipate the less you’ll get

for i am not safe in securing my wants and any external desire will shut me down

managing expectations is a novel concept to me how can i manage pain that can easily be avoided

better we meet at random or with an excuse drunk i forget myself for wanting you

cause i continuously play and perform i cannot act on true heart's desire

i am utterly worthless charitize me to strangers at my lover’s disgust who believes i’m special