I have this magic trick that I can do. Me, Clarissa. I can stop time every now and then. I used to accomplish it with the help of my magic wand, just kidding, I mean my piano. And though that method is still technically available to me, I am beginning to understand new ways to slip in and out of time. For example: reading a book, climbing a tree, inspecting a crawling thing. As this moment elongates into ribbons of light, I realize I can add “riding a bus” to the list.

Ohhh, I like this! I can totally relate to that magic. I actually have the desire to live like this all the time. I wonder if it could work by just never looking at a clock, just sleep when I'm tired and wake up when I feel rested. Unfortunately, synchronizing your life with others is required to some degree, though; for example, to buy groceries or meet friends.

I have recently noticed another magic related to reading a book: the moment I pick up a book and start reading, all my problems disappear. Being able to focus on words on a page is relieving. When I stop reading, the problems come back, but I have a new perspective on them. They also aren't shaping my experience as much anymore, since I now know how to keep them at bay.

Maybe I just need to read so fucking much, I actually forget all my problems? haha