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I want to know how you separated ambition from happiness.
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It's hard to say, but I think my problem was that the ambition was making me unhappy. I may have graduated with honors, but I didnt have the absolute best grades in my class, it was never good enough, nothing was ever good enough. Right now I sit on the beach with a beer and some cashews, thinking about the 6.5 lb wheel of cheese I cooked up a week or two ago, aging in my wine fridge. While I can't say i'm in utter bliss, I don't hate myself, and that is pretty darn good given how I was 10 years ago.
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It does sound pretty good.
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I found that the points in my life where I was chasing the biggest goals, was also the time that I was genuinely unhappy. Learning that being happy ment being content, may have somewhat lowered my ambition, but it was well worth the trade off to no longer hate existence. I guess i could say that my happiness/content is paramount, and being mediocre doesn't make that worse as long as I don't care. Im not sure making a place my myself in history would realy improve things much.