I'm learning to handle grief.

My brother committed suicide yesterday which was on the one year anniversary of his wife doing the same. Both had their struggles.

You sort of just assume that friends and family roughly your age will be around and grow old along side of you. Sadly, it's not always the case.

I've just discharged myself from rehab at day 21 of a 28 day rehab for heroin addiction. I left early because my wife was involved in a significant car accident. She's still in intensive care with burns and broken limbs. But let's be real - 21 days was more of a detox than a rehab. If I'm being honest, I probably need 60 to 90 days in there. Clearly unable to do that right now.

Two months ago if this had happened I'd have put a syringe in my arm and had a shot to forget about this. God knows I'm stinging to do that right now too. But that's the temporary and easy way out of life. Life is hard.

Please. For your sake, and your loved ones, if things start getting rough for you don't be afraid to reach out and talk to someone - anyone - about what's going on for you. I'm assuming most people here identify as male. It's not a sign of weakness.

Putting your hand up and saying you need support is a sign of strength.

So yeah - dealing with grief. That's what I'm learning today.