I think this is completely and totally fair to say, you're right. I like avoiding conversations, but there's less relief from anxiety in that, I find. What's harder to do is start the conversation, _and_ it's more rewarding.

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industry men take themselves so seriously. . .a girl's take on meetups

lol yeah not being able to relax and putting too much importance on yourself is pretty silly. I think most of the people at the meetup I go to aren't technical either. 

If however, your main complaint is actually that you want people to talk to you, it might actually be about the fact that you're introverted. People don't want to bother people who don't want to be bothered. You might be putting off body language that tells everyone around you to leave you alone, unknowingly. 

It might go a long way to try to be the one to strike up a conversation, rather than waiting for others to strike a conversation with you.