Plus it won't be the government taking care of u later. 

cyberpunk03

That’s what my father-in-law said. He shared about how having children makes him feel less lonely in his old age. Thanks for reminding me of the reason why I decided to become a father in the first place

cryotosensei

Confessions of a burnt-out father

I’m proud of you for being honest about how you feel. Parenting is the most difficult thing you’ll ever do and you are entirely justified in whatever you’re feeling. Having kids is a cage, but so being in your 50’s and realizing you spent your life focusing on a career and yourself and while your peers are finding meaning and joy welcoming grandchildren into their lives you are becoming increasingly irrelevant to a professional world where you are very replaceable. Find some support. Talk to a counselor or even better find a church. 