Greetings to @0xxx and apologies if anything written by this user sounds nihilist.
It takes time to learn to think positively. And takes much effort to retain positive thinking in the time of physical pain with no rational causes (when the head just hurts).
This person (a grown-up child, diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis at the age of 13) does all their best. Just when there is too much pain, it is much simpler to use shortcut thinking and imagine how everything would be fine if the world did not have to feed a person with such a pain.
Thankfully Bitcoin helps to make sure the person will never waste money on things that would hurt even more (drugs, etc.) as their coins are kept on a multi-sig wallet with another real person who also has their funds there, so the savings are safe from both of them. They would need to agree and be in good mood to sign any outgoing transaction.
Lot of patience to anyone else who is coping with something uneasy in life!