True, without intrinsic motivation, it can be difficult to get your head around even the basics, as in my experience, you never really learn things thoroughly the first time.

I've had my heart broken many times in this regard: you think you know something, just to learn that you, in fact, didn't get the full picture, throwing you back to square one.

It's easy to get annoyed and simply say "fuck it", but not for me, for I grabbed that bitch by her horns a long time ago, and am still holding tight.