i think there is this big stigma that when we try new things, they just have to end up working out in some way or another.
for example, i am here abroad in japan, getting ready to leave behind my job because i have found young kids are not for me teaching wise, and the conditions of the school were not the best either. why would i want to make myself stay somewhere when i know full well it is not going to work out? it doesn't do myself or the kids justice if my heart is not fully in it. and it would only serve to make my experience here more miserable and not what intended it to be.
don't get me wrong, i have met some incredible people here, and it has been a whole eye opening experience in itself personally. and i think my time here has been a whole test to get me ready for what is going to come next, in a really good way.
and quite honestly, i have no idea what's coming. although, i feel more eager to keep trying new things. i know it is going to be just fine.
I almost left this job after the first week because how much of a ruckus and bad impression it left me with, but it occured to me that i didn't actually try teaching for a full week yet. craziness of the working conditions and unprofessionalism aside, i sucked it up, did it, and found out it really wasn't for me.
my point is, is you don't have to force yourself to like something. but, please do yourself a favor, and really, genuinely try whatever it is you're doing.
it's okay if you don't like it. you can move on, and do something else. and that is what i think life should be about.