so, i have decided that in this currently crap economy, and searching for a job feels makes me want to blow my head uto bits , here is what i have realized and intentions i have set for myself.

i am gonna be delusional as fuck, and fake it until i make it.

I don't know if any of you are into watching self motivational or self help videos, but I didn't get into them until watching Thewizardliz. This woman has spoke to my soul so much in the past week, and I have been watching at least 1-2 of her videos every single day to keep me in high spirits to work toward the version of myself i seek to be, and the life i want.

THIS ONE. Really hit me in the face. and let me tell you why.

listen, i just moved back home from japan. it didn't work out. i've been applying to jobs here and there (hearing nothing back of course), and there hasn't been anything fulfilling or valuable about that. all i have felt is dead and depressed inside.

doing this made me realize that right now is all that truly matters. and you have NOTHING to lose in pursuing the life and intentions you want for yourself.

point blank period.

every single day this week, i've been acting like the best version of myself, and everything she would be doing in her day to day life to make it to success and fulfillment. and it has felt great.

another thing is, we can't do shit about yesterday, and we can't do shit about tomorrow either.

our thoughts and mind can wander and dwell as much as it wants on those things, but even then. NOTHING can be done. so you might as well keep trying with whatever time you are blessed to get.

so, i will do what i can do today, stay grateful, and let the universe do the rest because i know and believe that everything is working out and happening exactly how it's supposed to be.