Day 8 of expressing myself until I posted the interview with @plebpoet

a collection of mundane memories

• dreaming being a ghost floating up the stairs into our apartment and through a wall into my sleeping body; then waking up
• first math lecture in university, shouting from the back row: "I study computer science!" because I heard my future best friend complaining that she hasn't met anyone who also studies it like her yet; her being absolutely excited to have finally found someone who does; us innocently exchanging numbers in the hallway
• almost falling through the ice of the frozen campus swamp in winter with her; making a cheeky play on words of how I broke the ice between us; one of many to come
• being the only one of her university friends who drove all the way to her birthday party in her home town during the first winter break
• learning how to skate with her; how she was better with ollies while I was better at riding
• her being vulnerable in front of me for the first time by sharing that her relationship is not going well and she doesn't know what to do; me casually replying with something that I don't even remember but apparently helped her a lot because she remembered and thanked me for it half a year later
• talking to her about how we're never going to forget the day we almost walked past the uni shop, making this a day to remember; feeling so cool that we referenced Pirates of the Caribbean and A Day To Remember at the same time
• learning how to climb with her and effectively trusting each other with our lives
• how every other rope team was a couple
• Offspring concert, dancing with her and singing along Self Esteem, screaming "I'm just a sucker with no self-esteem" over the music at her; secretly describing how I felt to only be her best friend but confidently jumped into the mosh pit alone immediately afterwards in the most poetic moment of my life (hopefully only so far)
• accidentally saying out loud that she enriches my life in a conversation in a bar; how this made her eyes light up and make cute sounds
• nights of getting drunk together, always trying to beat that one race near the end of Need for Speed on the hardest difficulty; always almost making out
• how I waited for her bus to arrive and finally found the courage to tell her I can't go climbing in France with her in the summer as she was so excited to do; how I told her I can't because that's too much a thing for couples and we're not; how we looked at each other with broken hearts
• swinging on a swing on campus (before they took it down); trying to talk to friends (including her) about bitcoin for the first time
• how she told me she never wants to talk about bitcoin ever again
• how I still gifted her a hardware wallet because I was dumb, didn't understand why she doesn't want to talk about bitcoin ever again and didn't take her last words about bitcoin serious
• how furious and disappointed she was that I didn't respect her wish to never talk about bitcoin again
• crying on the couch together with her, having acknowledged we're not good for each other; realizing we both planned to switch universities so we don't have to see each other every day
• talking to @plebpoet for the first time as if she has always been my best friend

• It's easier to give people the same grace you give yourself when you remember this is their first time in this life, too.

• “What’s different about us is that we’re all following our dreams.”

• writing this?