Pain is strange. A cat killing a bird, a car accident, a fire.... Pain arrives, BANG, and there it is, it sits on you. It's real. And to anybody watching, you look foolish. Like you've suddenly become an idiot. There's no cure for it unless you know somebody who understands how you feel, and knows how to help.
Charles Bukowski
I really don't think that we want to be helped. Really I enjoy the pain to some degree. because it is familiar a old place that we know. I could be wrong but I know no other way that is the only way I can survive. I need the risk to keep me along the way. Life without so sort of danger is just too boring. Well that's my view I am not trying to get people to do anything like it. It is just the way I live and my friends too.