I have learned to be grateful for it all. My father was intense. But now he has been gone a long time, he took his own life. And I have done a lot of work to understand my life path better. I used to feel like a victim to things he did. Now I realize that he helped me become a strong resilient man. And I can see how hurt he was and how hard he had it. I have only gratitude for him. I wouldn't change a thing. So grateful.