I don't feel despair or meaninglessness over my routines.

However, the daily grind of life and the sheer amount of responsibilities, now that I am a middle aged parent, makes me long for more carefree days.

The feeling is especially true when I want to invest in a new skill or dive deep into a hobby. I often find the time is just not there to progress as much as I desire.

But raising my kids and doing my job well is meaningful enough. I think its almost like greed to say that I desire time to do even more