is this a little too vulnerable?? lmk

At first read, I thought you forgot to include something. This sounds like you described a dream (which can be very personal and thus vulnerable) before but then deleted it but accidentally kept the footnote. 👀

But I guess you meant this part:

my mind can get a little fucked up sometimes

This just reads very familiar to me, and I think a lot of people can relate.

I'm curious, have you found a thread of meaning in your dreams?

When the Ukraine war started and everyone still believed Ukraine would fall within a few days (including me), I dreamed that I was alone in a warehouse and a nuke went off in the distance (I could tell from the flash of light). In that moment, my only thought was if I should stay inside to maybe have a chance of survival when the shockwave arrives but at the risk of a lot of pain or go outside and die quickly without a lot of pain. I think I went outside in the dream. I think it's pretty clear where that dream came from haha

In general, I find the dreams in which I die quite interesting since they always abruptly stop which is like a reminder that even our subconscious has no fucking idea what happens when we die lol

And fwiw, I described another dream in #880647.

Do they contribute to choices you make?

Mhh good question but think so far, that was not the case

Does a practice of recording them bring you clarity in waking life? Or dreaming life

I used to record them to have easier lucid dreams, so yes, more clarity in dreaming life, I would say.