Since February 4th marked my fourth month on Stacker News, I feel emboldened to post my first Revelation. As I've alluded to in previous posts, the intention for this persona is to document the unraveling of my fiat delusions. The word 'revelation' means to "unveil," and is loaded with spiritual connotation. Having been raised in a Christian household, I was granted at birth with a system of thinking by which I could reasonably judge the world as it was coming into form; I was afforded a choice, actually to reject or accept this framework. In truth, my journey in using Bitcoin, engaging, in earnest, with a Bitcoin circular economy and the exchange of ideas here on SN, has put this system thoroughly to the test.

I identify as a non-churchgoing catholic, and spiritual seeking pragmstist, which both act as forces that appear to oscillate in their intensity when I step back and look into the mirror. Given my recent acceleration in coming to understand the nature of money, savings, community and privacy, the pragmatist in me is having its season. This, to be sure, has put my relationships to the test, and yields no shortage of moral dilemmas. My foundation, that I had so surely depended on, has been thoroughly shaken, fractured and then reinforced with stronger mortar.

I will spare the details on how this is playing out, but suffice it to say that in such assuredness, I am thrown once again, mercilessly, into desolating thoughts that leave me crying out: "help me, Jesus. Have mercy on me."