I was thinking of a related thing lately, about the times when I've felt like I was doing stuff that was fully me, wholly for the right reasons, out of joy and curiosity and passion, defined by nobody else's concerns.

It's staggering how good that feels, how a whole class of worries just evaporates, bc who can compete with you being you? You are the best and only you. You can put down a rock you didn't know you were carrying.

Then I think: is there a way to go about more of life in this mode?