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For me, it’s the moment when I arrive at a brand new city, busily absorbing all the sights, sometimes not knowing where I would sleep that night.

Parenting has ceased my wanderlust. And in that sense, i have tempered my need for adventure. I just wrote this to a colleague:

I think mortality is never far from our minds since we are middle-aged.
regardless of whether you wanna make your life count by leaving a legacy behind, you are likely to be anxious about sucking the marrow out of life.

Then, the question lies in whether life will continue to throw you enough surprises/stimulation such that you feel you are living, not going through the motions.
some seasons of life are bland, partly due to the choices we make. if we expect a dopamine-filled, adrenaline-pumping existence all the time, then yes, I think you are being greedy.
but if you are happy to extract and embrace the essence of a plain season and use it to bolster your soul, then nope. because we owe it to ourselves to feel alive.

To answer my own question, I feel most alive when I travel but am trying to capture a semblance of that exhilarating spirit in my everyday mundane life

exercising

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Deadlifts.. during and after

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In the past it would have been travel or going on a trip with friends, these days it's at the start of the school holidays when i don't have do do the school run or deal with the endless list of petty and soul-sucking bollocks that comes with the school.

the simple joy of waking up without an alarm, with everyone well rested, having a coffee in bed, and heading out to start the day

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I've found it most when I am swimming out in the sea or hiking and finding a river or waterfall at the end. Most of the time it has something to do with water.

It happens to me that I feel more alive is when I am taking care of my family and devising how we will advance to the future.

I never felt more alive than when I began to build my own family.

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when I am drunk

It feels alive when you have money to buy food, but when you don't have money everything feels difficult.

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