If you hate being a coke addict more than you hate being off coke you will quit.

I was never really into drugs but I used to drink heavily and I quit over a decade ago because I was sick of the lifestyle, sick of feeling like crap both physically and mentally and sick of wasting all of my money in bars. I hated the negatives more than I enjoyed the positives so I quit.

I don’t know what advice to give you other than to encourage you to really hate being a drug addict and know you can just fucking quit.