Nice write up!
I somehow understand what you feel. I changed my life (private and public) many times. And I am 50+ years old and about to change my life soon too.
One thing I am sure: NEVER LOOK BACK, always forward. Always with even more passion in what you are doing and confidence in your skills, strengths and future possibilities.
If you look back, the sorrow will eat you alive and your future "you" will be tormented and the new life will not be as you wish to be. The past will try to grab you down.
If you decide to move, just go forward, don't even think about going back. NEVER.
I wish you peace and prosperity!
Appreciate that! Yeah the urge to regress on a hard life trajectory is something that comes up every now and then. The "this would be easier if I just go back on this aspect" thought.
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