Maybe give this one a try

I am in the same situation. Seeking for a passion or purpose being on this planet my whole life. At least bitcoin made it clear why this clown world always felt so fake.

Its easy to say that passion grows out of doing and trying things but inside it feels like an empty room without any toys or ideas and getting addicted to substance abuse is such a easy move to silence this feeling. No advice!

…and as older you get you lose courage trying new things, the health get worse and worse and the years run by so fast….

Will following this thread… Maybe some helpful posts will be written…