I'm afraid to not help you much, because I'm on the same boat. However, I feel the need to share something interesting of my own experience.

When I was a kid, I asked my mother to buy me an acoustic guitar, and started learning. Overtime, I got into blues and when I was 15 I bought a fake chinese, cheap Les Paul. Long story short, I'd like to be like Slash, at that time. He inspired me. Later I listened to many other great guitarists, as Eric Clapton, Stevie Ray Vaughn and many, many others.

Later, I tried to get serious with music, but had many troubles and quit. Then, I felt the need to find something else. And started programming, God knows why.

Probably because I was introverted and didn't like to interact too much, I've found in programming a great way to express my desire to build and create stuff. And that became my career, some years after. That was around 2006, 2007. Didn't remember.

Then for me, it's not a great passion anymore, neither music or programming, but these have turned into something that I cannot get free now, it's just part of my life.

A passion can start with something you hate and need to avoid, than you create an entire world to live inside. Or, it's a small wish to do something, or to be like someone else. There's a lot of great people that could inspire you, but even if nobody's does, you can find things or ideas. Today I think a lot about freedom, in the philosophical and practical sense.

So, you'll change overtime. Don't worry to pursue a passion forever. Time will tell what is true and what's not. I wish you luck, life is a journey.

Try new things and listen to your soul. Pursue the things that make you smile. Don't be afraid of other people's opinions. Seek joy.

I thought this [1] was an insightful (and counter-intuitive) take on this topic. Basically: contra @DarthCoin, passion isn't the mirror of your soul. Passion is something you create based on action you take. Thinking that you need to discover the source of pre-existing truth leads to a lot of misery.

[1] O’Keefe, P. A., Dweck, C. S., & Walton, G. M. (2018). Implicit Theories of Interest: Finding Your Passion or Developing It? Psychological Science, 29(10), 1653–1664. https://doi.org/10.1177/0956797618780643

Do you have any hobbies that you ignored? I always always a film guy but I started to mess around with photography and found a good job in something I just looked at as a hobby

by lots of testing and trying things out.

If you did something that you like, it took you no effort and, to your surprise, people around you are wondering how you did it. That's where you want to look.

Maybe give this one a try

I am in the same situation. Seeking for a passion or purpose being on this planet my whole life. At least bitcoin made it clear why this clown world always felt so fake.

Its easy to say that passion grows out of doing and trying things but inside it feels like an empty room without any toys or ideas and getting addicted to substance abuse is such a easy move to silence this feeling. No advice!

…and as older you get you lose courage trying new things, the health get worse and worse and the years run by so fast….

Will following this thread… Maybe some helpful posts will be written…

You don't, your passion finds you.

Passion comes from inside you. Passion is the mirror of your soul.