I have been in your shoes. That was 13 years ago, and today she's fine. It sucked. She handled it better than I did! Don't read too much stuff on the internet. Get good doctors (trust your intuition), listen do them, and stay active. Oncologist said, the ones who wallowed don't make it, while the ones who carry on do. Put one foot in front of the next, one day at a time. It's all you can do.