I'll try to keep it short.

Around the time I was 16, I set myself some goals I wanted to achieve before I turned 30. I did this because I had some existential dread and life in general sucked really hard for reasons I won't go into here. I thought to myself:

Apparently, we call this in German "Torschlusspanik".

At some point, I discovered bitcoin and I had a feeling that this might be it:

I then set myself some more specific goals related to bitcoin like not selling for 5 years at least. Pretty basic stuff you could say so I'll also spare you the details here. But I knew the hard part was to actually follow through with the plans. So I literally used to talk to myself in the mirror and say stuff like "Bitcoin is the future. Bitcoin will prevail.", lol.

But it worked. I took a leap of faith with bitcoin, my stack growing the more I learned about it and it changed my life pretty fast in ways I would say are mostly positive. I kind of manipulated myself you could say.

So now I still remember the goals and plans how to achieve them from years back. I can feel the urge to change them thanks to the price going higher and thus the opportunity to achieve my goals getting closer. I wonder if I should update my goals in accordance with the knowledge and conviction in bitcoin I gained during these years. But I also know it's greed. I don't want to sell a chunk of my stack when the price might even go way higher in a "not so short time". But I also know that this is essentially trying to time the market which I thought was something I wouldn't do anymore.

So even though I was crazy enough to talk to myself in a mirror, I don't really know what I will do when my goals are finally within reach at basically the press of a button. Will I skip on the opportunity and regret it later, thinking there will come a better time?

I don't know but I know that the chunk that I am willing to sell in percentage points is indeed getting smaller and smaller. It's as if my future me gets more and more important to me so I want to keep all doors open for him. But I also know that we're all constantly running out of time and at some point there might be no future me of me anymore.

So it's a very good question. I realized I wrote all of this and didn't even answer your question yet.

My answer is basically this: my goals are mostly based on "experience stuff". So I wouldn't say I have materialistic goals. My goals are more like "live in a foreign country for some time", "jump out of a plane with a parachute" and "get a pilot license".

I think life is not only about awareness but also about experiences and bitcoin is just a means to an end. Just to which end exactly is the question that everyone has to answer for their own life though.