Church has been hard the past year and a half. I had to leave my previous church because of their COVID policy, among other things.
I see the bible as the word of God. That necessarily means there are things in there that I won't understand or get because they're beyond my mind's capability. But as much as I'm able I believe Christianity to be the most rational and reason-centered philosophy available.
I'm sorry church has been hard the past year and half. It has been the same for me. Thank you for your reply.