Nothing wrong with wanting more, and wanting to break out of the cycle. If you don’t already, I’d say it’s really important to have a solid community where you are. That’s going to be the most uplifting thing at your disposal if you can establish that. Friends can help you find better jobs and give encouragement and advice.

That’s what churches are supposed to be, so my recommendation would be to start there. Find a place that’s loving and welcoming, but doesn’t compromise on speaking truth.

And I will also say this - even though I’m financially stable, I find myself feeling the way you described. Life just feels like an endless hopeless rat race sometimes. Especially as a parent. It’s hard to stay focused and motivated. That’s pretty normal.