Recently I've been struggling a lot on trying to live by my values and try to explain or justify my actions with family and friends. I find myself more isolated the more I dive deeper in my rabbit holes and more I get exited to learn more, more I feel I'm leaving my dears behind.

I try to explain, try to bring them with me in this journey but there's no way they can give up on their conservative behaviours, most of the time living me with a deep sower taste in my mind, a feeling of hungry and disappointment that tell me to leave everything behind and continue throughout this journey.

Fam and Friends are what made us, are part of what we are. But what when things goes to the opposite side? How many of you had left behind loved ones, to honor a life that is more aligned with your own values? There's a famous saying, that suggest you become what people are around you (or something between these lines, can't exactly remember) If you surround yourself with negative people, you'll become negative. But if you surround yourself with successful, growth-minded people, you'll become successful too. Whatever negative or positive is from a subjective perspective, I assume the majority in the long term will make the difference. Considering myself the minority, in this case, I also know I'll not be going back to those values and I'd rather follow my own journey.

It's sucks, a lot! But's I'd rather put my efforts and energy to find a more like minded people and community in a different location more than continuing wasting my time in this toxic environment.

I feel like I want to leave everything behind and create a new life, I do not belong here anymore. Does anyone else has been through similar brain-dump before? Do you ever regret taking a similar decision in your life?