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I am writing this post, let's say under "duress" (@Natalia and @Lux were pushing me to write this) . Is kind of personal experience and I am not so comfortable telling you this story.
Seriously is quite hard for me to write these words here. But I will do it for the sake of stackers.
Some of the stackers were very curious about my past experiences with epiphany and NDE (near death experience). I know are not the same but in my case, were linked. Anyways, I am writing this post already drunk (8+ beers already). Otherwise I would not have the balls to share this personal experience on SN.
DISCLAIMER:
- I am not a religious guy, or somebody that can be influenced easily by religious stuff, appearances, and crap like that. I am a "facts guys" but with open mind. Religion is politics. Faith in some kind of high entity is something else.
- I do not write this post to get more sats. Just read it. If you want to be more visible, you could just zap 1 sat.
- I do not try to bullshit you in any way, you already know me, that I am not that "bullshit" guy. I always speak the truth as I see it, no matter what are the consequences or interpretations. I don't fucking care. What happened to me, have many connections, including Bitcoin and my bitcoin guides.
So if you do not want to read about these kind of experiences, just stop here and do not continue reading. I don't want to force anybody to read, believe or judge my experiences. Are mine and I do not care if you consider me a crazy lunatic or whatever. You cannot comprehend this stuff until you live it. I was the same until I saw them. And changed my life., Totally.
Not many people could handle this story and I was one of those for a while. I couldn't believe what happened to me. So if you are a weak minded person, please stop right here and do not read anymore. You really have to have a wide open mind to read this story.
Sooo, as you already know, I am an old bitcoiner (in age and also in years in Bitcoinlandia). My struggle was always how to get the fuck out of the system.
Please don't judge me, just take the facts from this story as they are. If you do not like them ort believe them, it is your problem and I do not care. I am here just to share a terrifying story of my life. Take it or leave it.
Let's go back to the point: my NDE.
The beginning of the story
All started when I was very young, 10 yrs age. In the communist era, trying to survive.
I was playing football with my friends in a large field far away from any village. Was only a deep water fountain, you know the old ones with a string and a bucket to take out the water.
So one day I went alone to drink some fresh water from that fountain. Absolutely nobody near me.
Suddenly a gipsy woman appeared behind me, next to the fountain. Out of nowehere and I was totally freaked out, almost shit my pants.
She said: "hey, don't drink that cold water now, that you are hot after playing... you will die like your cousin".
I was stunned: my cousin died just 2 years before after a pneumonia. How the fuck she knew that?
Then I said: "what do you know more about me?"
She said: "everything. you are kind of a chosen one, but you still don't know it and is not certain your faith, how will end up. All depends of your next actions, your destiny have many paths".
I was just shitting my pants in that moment. Literally. Not joking guys. Her words were so powerful and her eyes penetrate my brains that I couldn't say anything in that moment.
She took my hand and look at it.
She said: "you will have 3 times in your life, 3 dangerous moments, that your life will depend on very few factors. And you cannot do anything by yourself. All depend of what others nearby will do. If you get away with these 3 moments before you reach 50 years old, then you are totally free and your life will have a big change and more than that, your will change other people life."
She then continue: "if you pass all these three dangerous moments in your life, you will live happily more than 120 years. But is not easy to cheat death, so be very careful! Death is always near you and watching you. Fear is what makes you weak and push it into her arms. Never let the death to control you with her fear trick."
At that moment I didn't paid too much attention to her words, but were recorded very deep into my mind, for many years. So I ignored her and drink the fresh water. Just after that she disappeared like puff, in the middle of nowhere, it was impossible to disappear like that with a long distance field and road that you can see it far away km away... And wasn't a dream or something like that. She was fucking real.
Many years after I was kind of haunted by her words...
Then the 1st event happened.
The 1st NDE
I was 17 yrs old, I was a mountain guide, well prepared and trained.
Short story, I was guiding some french people through a high mountain and I was falling into a deep gap of 1000m. My 1st "luck" was some brushes that hang my backpack and kept me afloat on top of that huge gap of 1000m. The french people just run away (scared shit) leaving me there, thinking that I will just fall down in matter of seconds. It wasn't like that. Hardly I was crawling my ass on top of the grass and arbutus and finally could get away.
But in that moment of fall down, I saw it all black, my whole previous life was passing through so fast, like a movie on FFW. Every fucking moment of my life. TERRIFYING moments that I do not want anybody to live them.
When I arrived bback to the cabin (5km away) I was totally another person. The friends there not even recognized me. They even asked me "why are you older?"
Years passing away, almost forgot about the incident. My life went from terrible to dangerous (during communism shut down) but I survived.
The 2nd NDE
So I was 10 years later, 27 years old, having another change in my life: getting a new job in a new city. The company gave me a new car and I had to drive to the new post job like 600km.
All good until a fucking truck trailer hit my tiny car and throw me 100m away. All the car was destroyed but absolutely nothing touched me.
Again, I saw the black tunnel, this time, very deep and clear.
It is real guys. The NDE is fucking real. And you cannot do shit about it. All depends of your destiny. Is pure black and some lights, depending of the circumstances. If there are people around and are calling you... YOU FUCKING HEAR THEM! But the thing is you cannot move physically. You need to move only with your power of your mind. In that "realm" the only power you have is your mind. So be prepared for this shit stuff.
So being in that black hole tunnel, this time I was struggling to get out. In just few seconds, again my life was FFW entirely, but this time I was able to see parts of my future "me", and I was alive and well. Once I saw myself alive, the whole black tunnel became illuminated and I got back out, seeing the truck driver trying to get me awake. He was so happy to see me alive and well.
The 3rd NDE
All good and after 10 yrs more I had another "accident". This time on a mountain.
I was hiking with 4 kids (1 is my daughter), just a normal hiking kids trip, but suddenly a heavy rain caught us on top of the mountain. So we have to go down from that mountain ASAP. And we went, fast but end up in a gorge with no exit. At least for me with 4 kids. If I were alone I could get out but the kids were not well trained for that.
So short story short, I fall down into the gorge and my daughter saved me, throwing me a cord and grab me out. Because I was trying to find a way out before grabbing them with me.
Again, I saw the black hole and all my life passing through. This time was slower, like showing me the moments in my life I did mistakes. I even had time to analyze them. In my head was like a review of my life mistakes.
In that moment I realized that is my last chance to go back. And I heared my daughter creaming at me as loud as she could. That waked me up and grabbed the cord, in the last moment was possible. And saved my miserable life.
Believe me, you do not want to pass through these NDE. Is fucking terrible.
In this last one, I saw the hell.... and the heaven, in the same time. It is real. But not as we think it looks like. You just feel it. Pain, suffering, joy, excitement, peace, all of them in the same time. It's a terrible experience that I do not want anybody to feel it, not even my enemies.
So that was my 3rd NDE that I survived as the gypsy woman said 30 years ago.
Nowadays, already passed 10 years more and nothing happened, I already passed 50+ years now and I can tell you, my life is totally changed.
Ok, now, from NDE, let's go to the "fun part", the epiphany moment in my life. Part that I wasn't prepared, the gypsy woman didn't told me about this part.
The epiphany
2019... right before the "plandemic" scam period.
I had like a pre-monition of what will happen. I told to my wife and family about and they all called ma fucking lunatic and crazy.
Just few months later, all I said to them was come true. I was petrified myself because I didn't told them that I see dead people on the streets. It doesn't matter how those people were dead, but were dead and I saw them even before they were dead. I had even neighbors that I saw them dead long before they died. For me was a terrible experience because I couldn't tell them what I saw.
Anyways, in sept 2020, I had that epiphany. Again terrifying experience. I am just a normal guy, living my simple life, trying to get out of the system with bitcoin.
Then one day, I wake up in the middle of the night, I was sure wake up and not dreaming. I saw that from my windows, came 2 entities, very bright white entities, like flying.
My body was like a rock, not capable of moving or screaming or do anything.
In that moment, I don't know how much time was, I saw again all my life FFW but this time focusing on my important moments including the 3 NDE passed. Terrible moments, these entities they really wanted to point me all my bad moments and extreme moments in my life. Like they want me to remember for the last time.
They told me, but not with words, but with mind control or something that I still do not understand: you have a mission. Listen carefully.
Your journey on this realm is coming to an end. Is up to you if you want to continue or not. What we offer you right now is your choice: come with us or stay and continue your journey. But your mission will change if you stay.
Then I asked them: "what was/is my mission?"
They said: your initial mission is over, you've passed, you can come with us into the stars and continue your new journey as a starseed.
I responded: what if I want to stay, I like on this planet, I like these mountains...
One of the white entities said: as you wish, but then we have to assign you another mission and we cannot intervene or tell you what is this mission, you will need to find it yourself. Then you will decide when is time to come with us.
I was stunned for several hours, almost 2 days, not moving, not waking up, not taking any food or water. My wife was freaked out calling some neighbors not knowing what to do.
In the end, I wake up like nothing happen, just a bit weak, like without batteries.
I couldn't talk many months, until I start reading some telegram groups talking about bitcoin and their struggling to understand it.
In that moment I knew what was my next mission in this realm: teaching more noobs about bitcoin. I know is hard to believe all this. Even for me. That NDE changed my life totally. I became another man. I don't know how. I can't explain it.
Later few months, came into my mind all my hiking trips over the mountains, looking for a peaceful place. In all those years looking for it,
I didn't think about WHY I was looking for it.
But after this NDE all pieces come together and was the last puzzle piece for me: my mission is to build that citadel and make it a place of bitcoin knowledge, share that knowledge with others.
I will die making this happen. I promise you guys, will not die until is finished. For Bitcoin and for Freedom.
Like teh gypsy woman said: if I escape from those 3 moments I will live until 120 years and will have a happy life. My happy life will be a better world with Bitcoin.
Proposal for a Radical Revision of Psychiatry, Psychology, & Psychotherapy - Stanislav Grof