I always felt (or at least as long as I can remember) that foxes are my spirit animals. However, I never looked up what that actually means.
I only know that I always liked the dedication of this fox even though it's kind of retarded to try to survive in a frozen wasteland:
However, recently, I realized: Maybe I am indeed also kind of retarded.
I realized this not only thanks to this quote from @orthwyrm:
I am laughing at this post like I laugh at the old me, but in a good way if you get what I mean. I think you're a smart dude with a lot to offer. You're also young and kind of retarded. That's OK, you'll grow out of it.
However, at least currently, I don't think I want to grow out of it. I want to embrace my retardedness, whatever that means. I want to use it as kind of an armor (or superpower) like Tyrion tries to explain to Jon Snow in this scene:
I want to show people that they cannot trigger me because I literally don't care enough what they think (about me) to get triggered about what they think (about me) [0]. I do care what people think (about me) to some degree. I think it's important to constantly and consistently reevaluate your views on the world. And the best way to do that is to allow others to challenge your views. Else, you might get totally out of sync with people and lose yourself not in the music, but in yourself. I think that's also the reason why I like (possibly way too much) to challenge other people's views - even if I might agree with their view. I want to find out if we agree for the same reasons or if they just happen to have the same view but for the "wrong" reasons. I do this because I really think I am doing them a service, they just don't get it yet, lol.
Stating possible facts should not make me angry. It should make me think and evaluate if what the other person is saying is bullshit (which means they are wasting my time) or not bullshit (which means it's plausible and I might have to think more about this before I can reply in a productive way).
But more about my potential retardedness in a future post. Back to foxes as spirit animals:
I also used to try to imitate the laugh of Dixie and Finnegan in a evil way when I was teasing my ex-girlfriend in some retarded way [1]. I was also able to be very cranky like Dixie when she didn't let me sleep past noon because I couldn't sleep before 4AM because I just had to finish something on my computer before I could join her in bed [2].
Fox Spirit Animal The fox is often associated with the figure of the trickster, but as a spirit animal, it can also turn into a teacher providing guidance on swiftly finding your way around obstacles. If you follow the fox totem wisdom, you may be called to use or develop quick thinking and adaptability. Responsive, sometimes cunning, this power animal is a great guide when you are facing tricky situations.Fox Symbolism The symbolic meanings associated with the fox are:
- Physical or mental responsiveness, increased awareness
- Cunning; seeing through deception; call to be discerning
- Ability to find your way around, to be swift in tricky situations
- Affinity with nocturnal activities and dream work
[...]Fox spirit guides and deception The fox is known for sneaking into homes and getting away without being caught. Because of it’s characterized by its cunning ability, this animal has acquired the image of trickster in a number of cultures. [...] Following the fox totem wisdom, look for any area of your life where you may be cunningly led to do something else than you would in all reason do. Use discernment in your choices and actions.
And I have to admit: some parts are actually scarily accurate. However, as mentioned, I don't care too much about what other people (or sites) think about me, so I also think that maybe, if I would lookup other random spirit animals, I will also find some parts with which I can identify myself with since our brains are pattern-recognition machines.
But what about you? What is your spirit animal?
[0] I know that's currently not true, especially when it comes to people talking shit about cryptography, lol. Also I seem to be too retarded to figure out how to use proper footnotes on SN.
[1] But we both liked to imitate animals in general, lol.
[2] I know that wasn't cool because apparently, bitcoin was sometimes more important to me than spending time with her. But at least only sometimes and not always?