This post is completely deranged and you'll read it 5 years from now and cringe, but I get it.

When I was younger, there was this girl I was super into. She didn't feel the same way and saw me as a "friend". We hung out every day. I was so "nice" to her and eagerly listened to all her problems. Of course I got nothing in return. She probably saw right through me and enjoyed the attention. It was honestly the most miserable period of my life and it turned me into a twisted, jealous, bitter goblin for a couple of years railing against the universe for being so unjust. Actually, I recall making a post just like this on some forum somewhere too.

The funny thing is that I can now look back on all that and laugh. Literally. She was completely wrong for me by every metric. I have no idea why the fuck my hormones went wild with that one, but they did. I think I might actually have been insane? I don't know. For all I care, that version of me has ceased to exist and might as well be an angry little alien on a planet far far away.

I am laughing at this post like I laugh at the old me, but in a good way if you get what I mean. I think you're a smart dude with a lot to offer. You're also young and kind of retarded. That's OK, you'll grow out of it. Just don't yourself too seriously and make yourself miserable like I did. We're all fallible.