What would your grandparents do, how would they cope, if they had made the choice not to have kids?
What will you do when you reach their age, and have no-one close to be with?
If you're not seriously thinking about having kids, you're sabotaging your future self. This is the reason you're feeling the way you feel, without purpose!
Life's purpose is primarily to achieve immortality through procreation. Everything you do must serve the purpose of finding the right partner to achieve this immortality.
No amount of travelling, bagpacking, meet ups, bitcoin, "try new things", and all the bs, will fill that void.
For the love of God, find a suitable partner and have kids.
Respectfully yours. 🫂