Everything has its limitations (except maybe density and entropy in a physics) so maybe similar to the speed of light, we just need to accept that productuvuty is not a constant.

My motivation tends to be there, consistently but I find if I'm not methodical and realistic in my approaches and don't set achievable goals, motivation alone can become torment, affecting sleep, as you say. This week, I felt that taking time out and hanging out, spacing out, and underachieving has been helpful to get back on track. I feel restored, somewhat.

I'm terrible for both discipline and unrealised goals. But I remind myself that the pursuit can be equal to the purpose, stuff like my newbie-ish adventures with basic coding, or just to travel to an event are often rewarding in ways I expect, and learn or enjoy things along the way. Even if I didn't quite accomplish everything I set out to.

This year I've achieved minimal in terms of projects or creative output, but learned quite a bit, or at least trained and built on existing knowledge. Also met some people in the space, that's been inspiring, need to nurture the motivation sometimes.