Thing is, this reply wouldn't have hit the same if I hadn't done the copy-cat first. We both agree the copy-cat was ugly. I genuinely think it will be helpful to you to see your post the ugly way women would see it, and to have at least a sort of viewpoint from the other side of why, even if it isn't an exact fit. But yeah, mine was ugly, to try to help with seeing from an alternate viewpoint. I cannot stress enough how bad the path you were headed down with that initial post was. It will not help you, but I think you get that. The emotion in it was real, and I feel for it. Again..... you're gonna find someone. And she'll be lovely.