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Damn bro!
So the point of this story is: BE FUCKING TOXIC WHEN YOU HAVE TO, BUT BE FUCKING SMART ABOUT IT, NOT LIKE FUCKING DarthCoin, BEING FUCKING TOXIC WHENEVER HE FUCKING CAN, EVEN ON TOPICS HE HAS SO FUCKING OBVIOUSLY NO FUCKING IDEA ABOUT, EVEN ADMITTING HE HAS NO FUCKING CLUE ABOUT CODE LOL!
You were really disturbed when you wrote that post of yours because you used a lot of profanity. I've never used this much ever lol. I'm still reading it again
PLEASE DON’T FUCKING ASK ME HOW I AM DOING OR START DM’ING ME OR WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU THINK MIGHT HELP ME. I JUST WANT TO FUCKING MOVE ON, I DID NOT REALLY WANT TO TALK ABOUT THIS HERE BUT I JUST REALIZED I MIGHT HAVE TO TO FINALLY BE ABLE TO FUCKING CODE AGAIN AND COMMIT TO ME BEING FUCKING TOXIC BUT IN A HELPFUL WAY TO ANYONE WHO I THINK IS WASTING MY FUCKING TIME.
I think we all have faced this when you want to be left alone, but when people just ask, 'Hey, are you okay? doing good? Need any help?' it annoys me more.
11 sats \ 7 replies \ @ek 12 Dec
EVEN ADMITTING HE HAS NO FUCKING CLUE ABOUT CODE LOL!
I regret writing that the most, it's good when you admit that you don't know something. Not sure why I wrote that.
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It's fine, it just happens. It's proven that when you're angry or a little disturbed, you can say things that you might regret saying. For me, I never take the words of people who are saying something when they're angry I know by heart they don't mean it.
Btw, you've got balls to write about your feelings so well. I could never gather courage to write like this.
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21 sats \ 5 replies \ @ek 12 Dec
This was my favorite reply (next to the top comment):
This post is completely deranged and you'll read it 5 years from now and cringe, but I get it.

Btw, you've got balls to write about your feelings so well. I could never gather courage to write like this.
Never say never 👀 But thank you, I only did it because not writing about it was worse and I really think we need more authentic people, I am done with all the fakeness.
I also know that I would appreciate if someone writes like this if they really mean it (and not just some rage bait or something) so why shouldn't I write like this? Because it requires courage? Don't we all want to be courageous? We need to start somewhere 👀
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I totally get this. People say don't cry when you want to cry but it's the worst thing to do. Not expressing your feelings will literally hurt you from inside each day, and you'll become depressed and look like broke all the time. I too have some experience, and disturbing things happened to me that I never expressed to anyone ever because I fear they'll judge me, or maybe I can't trust how people will keep my feelings. (I feel when sharing feelings and secrets, you should choose a person the same way like you choose a software for you that you trust, is encrypted, and won't leak things lol). I've learned how to fake calmness, even when a fire is burning inside me every time. Writing things online is a part very new to me and maybe I'll try to write. Maybe I'll start without thinking that people won't judge me.
Thank you.
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21 sats \ 3 replies \ @ek 12 Dec
you'll definitely be judged, but there will also be people who will appreciate you (hopefully).
I actually zapped this dude 1k sats because I had to laugh so much haha
not sure if they were serious
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Dude literally said you're doing Reddit style Karma farming. ☹️
Yeah, there are some stonehearted guys out there who'll say these hurtful things to you. I like your cool attitude of zapping him and laughing lol. this is what I need to learn, If it was me I would have replied him rudely and maybe it would end up as a nasty argument. It’s hard to digest things and keep calm when someone hurts your genuine feelings.
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21 sats \ 1 reply \ @ek 12 Dec
It’s hard to digest things and keep calm when someone hurts your genuine feelings.
It should be easier online though, so might be a good place to start
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It should be easier online though, so might be a good place to start
Will try! 💪