Ooooh, believe me, I was. I was soo much, I again spinned it to make myself bad because I just disappeared without telling anyone because I thought "No one is going to care anyway. Or at least after a few days. And that's good. I don't even want them to care, that's the whole point of disappearing, no? That you literally disappear without leaving any trace?"

One of my other 76841 biggest problems is definitely that I don't know how to show my feelings to other people so I rather just ... I don't know. Not say anything? lol

Believe me, the past days have been crazy with me disappearing, releasing the PM, releasing territories, intervened with lots of personal stuff (I may finally found a climbing buddy after 3 years, completely by chance, ...)

If I ever feel confident enough to talk about myself publicly (without exposing too much PII?), I may make a blog post about my journey in life one day :)

I feel like the up's are getting higher and higher... but at the same time, the down's are getting much more surprising in return. Maybe not necessarily lower, but the surprise is what makes them so bad.

I could be like that "Are you rrrrrrready?" guy, except in reverse.

Side note: how much dough has that son of a bitch made by just being famous for saying that one dumb thing? Amazing. It's like Western Civilization distilled into a single example.

I'm tempted to make an are_you_rrrrrrready territory, but the joke isn't worth 100k sats.

I realized that lately, I have been commenting (again...) too much :)

I consider the incoming scarcity of my comments a sign that my comments may actually contain some value, lol :)

So I will try to only respond to comments now where I feel like I actually indeed have something to say that is worth the time it takes me to write it.

For example: do you want a lot of comments like this or a few comments like this? :)

but doesn't matter what you want actually. i have already decided for myself, lol :)